014 - Back to the Roots

Writing this at 4:20pm lol. It's been a minute since ive written on here, and if you're new here pls disregard any grammatical / punctual errors i kinda just write these to get out and making sure everything is spelled correctly will take too much time lol sorry. plus my left shift button is broken and my spacebar gets stuck sometimes.

Back to the Roots

Writing this blog because i'm noticing the importance of bringing it back to a time where my mindset was a lot more clear / focused / uninfluenced. I say this because the past year or so ever since I moved into my work studio i've operated so much more different than I had prior. Now granted this being a time when we were in lockdown, it was a lot easier to focus on my creative work. Nonetheless, I feel like I haven't been growing as much as I would've hoped. 

Focusing on ideas, not growth.

 Back then I feel like I was so dialed in on just making things. Either it being me just trying to replicate things I like, or trying to invent new things, it was a really cool time, a lot of fun and experimentation. Everything I did was for the present and not necessarily focused on the future.

Fast forward to the last year or so and now I feel like i'm very focused on the future. How to scale things, how will I get from point a to point b, trying to set up systems, etc. All these things I believe is beneficial to me and towards this creative project but i'm starting to lose the sense of what exactly i'm trying to do.  Not tryna make it seem too deep, but yea in a way I don't really know what i'm doing anymore. I feel like my mind has just shifted priorities over the past 2-3 years and i've never really updated my brain on whats happening, or shifted the trajectory of the brand in the right way. Maybe it's that, I think the headspace I was in when I first started is different then where i'm at now. Not good or bad, just slightly different and I just gotta figure out how to get everything aligned with each other to have everything run as smooth as possible.

So now what?

Idk lol. Well i've already started on some reassessing of this thing i'm doing and i'm starting to get somewhere with it, just not quite there yet. 

I'm going to try and go back to creating / working on ideas. Plain and simple. Getting ideas into the world is something I want to try to focus on. But then theres the growth thing. I definitely want to grow this project, but I think I just need to build some more foundation / find my bearing on exactly how I want to go about this. This doesn't mean I won't be releasing anything for a bit, maybe it'll mean the complete opposite. I just want to throw ideas out there for sale or not, but I might make things limited so I can focus on the next. In a way that's also growth besides all the business growth stuff. It's creative growth.

I've actually been working out of my home studio a lot the past couple weeks because I can actually think and helps me with new ideas. My work studio feels pretty "office-y" rn and just feels empty. Kind of hard to create new ideas in an environment like that. Maybe i need to just move my computer desk next to my climbing wall? fwp fr.

Stopping the blog here bc i'm tired and hungry so imma go home, watch Better Call Saul.

Let me know any thoughts you wanna share in the comments (if I know how to turn those on)

Thanks yall, Peace.